Gardening: it is hard work, this 'grow your own' business, and before I got into it, I really only imagined how wonderful it would be picking basketfuls of fresh vegetables, and making preserves from home grown fruit. It is wonderful, but it ain't easy. There is a lot of ignoring too... ignoring weeds, ignoring pests and problems, ignoring basil waiting to be made into pesto. I love my up close photos of beautiful things in my garden, but in the background, in reality, there is so much waiting to be done, and it will never end! Some days I do imagine how wonderful it would be living in a townhouse with a few potted herbs and a Farmers Market around the corner... but I prefer my own weedy, pest ridden patch of potential. Plus, the hard work is a good work out (I keep telling myself!)
Blogging: some days I get the day started by blogging. It should be something I do after the kids go to bed, or perhaps when they are in school/ daycare before I go to an afternoon shift, or on a weekend, when my husband plays with the kids and I enjoy a cup of tea at the laptop... but no, the truth is some mornings, inspiration hits, or motivation drags, or debriefing is required, and half an hour, is spent on here, while the washing hangs out in the basket rather than the clotheslines, the kids watch ABC kids or ride bikes outside by themselves with me telling them I'll be out soon... or there is gardening that I am ignoring!
Making Friends: I am not good at this. In those personality test thingies, I am an extroverted introvert! I do like to socialise and happily put myself out there, the vivacious one, the introducer, the chatter... as long as I have plenty of me time, quiet time, homebody time, to balance it out. Despite blogging about my life to the world, I guess I am a private person. If I related making friends to relationships, then I guess I'd be the one going on loads of blind dates, hoping to find a soul mate (or two!) but hesitant to take the next step, for fear of rejection, of judgement, of intimacy. Like those singles looking for love, I think the key to finding good friends, is to not be looking. Just let it happen... and in the mean time, I have you, my blog connection, keeping me from hanging out the washing, but also keeping me from feeling isolated!
Building community: Talking about isolation, well, this whole community bonds, community resilience, community groups thing is wearing me out. I've come to this conclusion before, but I just need to look out for my family and myself. Oh, how I want to be involved in a dynamic, interactive, organised group, but there has to be some dedicated individuals who make it dynamic, interactive and organised. It sounds selfish, but it just can't be me. I've tried, I have. Maybe it's like making friends, and I just need to drop my expectations. What I do know is that my time can be better spent on my own family, my own backyard and myself, whether my husband and I find that bunch of like-minded local families or not!
Real Life: here I sit in my ugg boots, yoga pants, watching The Circle and blogging, while my husband has the kids at a playdate in the park, because I slept poorly, have an inkling of a sore throat, and am staying healthy for a big weekend away we have planned. That's real life... the good (weekend away sans kids), the bad (my social life consisting of a laptop) and the ugly (yoga pants being worn by someone who does not have a yoga body)! I love it, though, and that is the truth!